There was once a girl. She fell in love for the first time at the tender age of 14. To some, adolescents at this age do not know the meaning of the word ‘LOVE’ but stubborn as she is, she wants to prove them wrong.
She gave her free time to the lucky guy as she balances studies and her extracurricular activities, like sports, journalism and photography. This was no easy task at first as all her high school classes were advanced as she was studying in a Science High School. She began to excel in multi-tasking because of this. Everything was good.
But as what is destined to be from the start, young love is doomed to fail. Many factors were to be considered. Age, priorities, differences between the young couple, the other gives more and the other takes more.
She was devastated at first. Well, who wouldn’t be? She believed in happily ever afters, happy endings, love conquers all and things like that. A genuine hopeless romantic.
A few months after, she met a new guy. He seemed nice, she thinks. Well, aren’t they all are in the beginning? They spent time with each other, exchange of text messages, conversations that last until the wee hours of the night and would end because either one of them fell asleep. The next day, they would continue from where they left off. After many months they became a couple.
This continued for a span of seven years. All her relationships lasted more than a year. She treasured them that much. She would always find time for them even if she herself was exhausted. She would be with them and support them if they need her. Even if this would inconvenience her. The other half was more important than her. She would run to them with just one text. That was how she understood “LOVE” and that was how she expressed it. Other’s feelings first before her own. She was disappointed many times when she realized that all her efforts were not mutual but she would just shrug it off think that everyone is different. To each her own style. She believed that all those efforts were needed so that the relationship will last. She didn’t think that just by herself, she is enough.
She lost herself in the process.
She had forgotten that above all else, you should not lose yourself. That you need to love yourself more. Yes its important to think of others but you should never ever forget about yourself. Who you are. What you are. The things you like. The things you enjoy doing. All these things should be remembered and not forgotten. You should know yourself and have a deeper understanding with yourself.
You are precious. You are always enough.
These are the words she needed to hear but during those times she did not. She believed that effort equals love. Eventually, she soon remembered that that mentality is wrong. She shifted her mindset. She is now on the road to re-discovering herself. Knowing what she wants, learning to say NO to people, spending time with friends, opening her life to others and sharing her story. She had been single for a little over a year now and I might say she is enjoying herself. Very timely, I might say. She’s on the road to self discovery. She found herself piece by piece creating a clearer picture of herself. She’s coming out of her shell. She remembered that the most important thing in life is knowing to love yourself and be contented on who and what you are. She is unique in her own little way. She cant be anyone else and nobody can ever be her. She is comforted by the very thought that scared her before.. She might be a late bloomer but still the fact remains that she did bloom.
They constantly told me that my first love would be a handsome boy who’d save me, or a pretty girl who’d hold me. So I searched the world for another, never knowing that my first love should have been ME – Anonymous
The girl is ME
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