Recently, I’ve been in a rut. I had a bout of self-pity mixed with mild depression that also affected my physical health. (I’ve been so sick lately it sucks!) Call it a blessing in disguise but being sick also has its perks. Spending time doing nothing but resting and being alone in my thoughts allowed me to do a little self-evaluation, something I badly need, it seemed. I’ve been unhappy on some areas of my life (i.e. in pursuing my dreams) and instead of addressing them head-on, I just shove it to the side and try to forget about it. That worked for a time but in the end, it just built up until it affected me so much that there is no way to go but address it.
You cannot solve a problem by running away.
Nobody solved a problem by running away. Problems are solved by identifying it, accepting it for what it is, dealing with it head on, and nipping it in the bud. For me, my problem stemmed from me being disappointed in what I have been lately. The dissatisfaction of not yet achieving the dreams and goals that I set for myself this year. Problem is, I set too much goals that I didn’t know which one to do first. I had a hard time choosing a specific goal to achieve because I was afraid I might not achieve it. I thought that the other goal might serve as a fall-back in case I don’t achieve one. In the end, I spread myself too thinly on so many things that I sacrificed quality and focus.
It’s unrealistic to try to make a decision you will not regret. Whatever decisions we make, there will always be regrets but you have stick with it and soldier on.
Juggling many different things might make you feel more successful but in the end, you are just speeding up the burnout process. You become sort of a jack-of-all-trades but master of none. Blame it on the desire to do many things at the same and the belief that everything will go according to plan but not having a back up plan is a sure plan for failure. One of the solutions that I see is learning to prioritize what is important and focus on achieving it one step at a time. That way, you can focus more of yourself in pursuing it instead of doing many things half-baked.
When you hit your lowest low, there’s no way to go but up.
So cliche, but its true. When you reached that point where you just want to give up, inspiration will come and it will help you push through!
Don’t be too hard on yourself. Learn to appreciate where you are.
Slow progress is still progress. I’ve been telling that to myself a lot lately. I am wiser today than I was two months ago. Though I still can’t see the results at this time, in the future I know it will come as long as I believe in it and pursue it diligently. As Alanis says, “Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out”.
We cannot live a hundred lives in just one life. That is reality, and its okay.
Though I still haven’t figured out what plans to prioritize and pursue, I know for sure that some of them will take a back seat next year. Maybe for good, who knows? I’ve resigned to the fact that unless you are a superhuman, you cannot live a hundred lives in just one life. Its reality, and its okay. I know I’ll figure this out. 🙂